I’m just tired. Tired of her, tired of him, tired of you, tired of it. Tired of everything and anything.
Tired.Tired.Tired.
I’ve completely lost anything and everything and I honestly just don’t care anymore. I have nothing left to lose. Thanks life, you’ve been fucking great.
I’m so disgusted, disappointed and once again I was lied to. I really need to stop doing this to myself. I have too high of expectations of others and even more so, I need to stop caring about people who not only don’t care about me; but evidently don’t care about themselves. I can’t stop anyone from doing what they want to do, or being who they are. No matter how much I may try to save that person. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want it. I need to learn to stop.
So it’s been a while since I’ve had the opportunity to sit and be alone with my thoughts. I’ve tried to find several distractions to occupy my mind from what truly haunts me. But throughout my days, there will come a point where you cross my mind, whether it be for a second or for the whole day. I’m beginning to think that you permanently reside in the back of my mind, coming out as you please. I guess there’s no avoiding it anymore. I will always, ALWAYS care. I will always want to know how you’re doing, I will always want what’s best for you and I will always be there. Although I’m not needed anymore, I thought I’d let it out. My time ended a while ago, long before any words were spoken. I guess it’s something you feel, when you try so hard at something for so long you either make it, or break it. Nowadays happiness comes and goes as it pleases. Our time was up, but I do hope you are truly happy and wish you the best. There are times when I wish we could still be friends, but thoughts like that are frowned upon and would probably do more harm than good. So things will remain as they are. It’s a small world we live in, I’m sure I’ll see you around.
